Let's be upfront:
I don't see myself working in the chocolate factory for a long time. Honestly I really do enjoy working here. However, this is not where I see myself in 3 years.
So, I have taken the initial steps in becoming a licensed teacher. I have applied, now I have to wait for a confirmation of my elgibility to apply for a teaching position.
BUT... I feel like a betrayer. I've been filling out the applications at my desk during working hours (there's nothing to do here during the summer) knowing full well that I don't plan on being here for a long time.
I don't want to be here for Christmas (Valentine's Day was bad enough) and get stressed out. During Valentine's Day there was no time for lunch, when I got home I was mentally exhausted and I freakin' dreamt of shipping chocolates! I don't want this for Christmas (that's when we make 60% of our annual profit whereas Valentine's Day was only 25%).
However, if I do get hired into a teaching position, I'd have Christmases off and help out here anyway. But, I want to get hired before this Christmas thing happens.
So, here I am plotting with my selfish amibition at my side for betting my career. I've always wanted to be an English teacher, and there are plenty of schools near where I live. So, I figured why not go for it? There's nothing wrong with applying to better my career standing.
But I can't shake the feeling that I'm a sneaky chocolate Judas....
You are not a sneaky chocolate Judas (although that was beatifully put)! I am sitting here trying to fill out my MA application for UF. And the secretary at the insurance agency down the street is probably writing a book in between phone calls. Ambition is not a sin, dear.
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