Life is strange..I can't say more than that

This morning I officially turned down the chance to go back to England and study this fall. If you're wondering, yes, it broke my heart. From the moment I began to type the first letter, to the moment I pressed send, I felt myself shatter. As I was at work, the only thing I could do was quietly get up, walk to the restroom, lock the door, and sob. I never expected to react so strongly to this.
Now, I have no intention of whining, nor meriting any sort of pity from you reader. In fact, I simply needed to say, even though I am now sitting here defiantly telling myself there is still a whole day, I can't deny that the only hope we all have is that there is a point or purpose. That someone out there knows exactly how we feel. I choose to believe this is God, whether or not you feel the same. In that I have to believe there is a reason, there is more than just disappointment. So maybe there will be some hurt today, but I'm going to live in the knowledge that it's only for a fleeting moment. I have no knowledge of the future, but I press ahead in the knowledge that there is a future.